I’ve registered for Tri For a Cure 2017! I raised enough money last year to be guaranteed entry and knew even as I was completing the event last July that I wanted to do it one more time.
Then I lost my grandfather to cancer in November.
Now it feels more important and personal than ever.
I have a photo of him on my fundraising page. Your donations would be so appreciated. It’s going to be harder to host a CycleGiving party to raise money to fight cancer and be upbeat and cheerful and pass out beers after. It’s harder when I miss a goal during a workout and think of him and feeling like I’ve failed somehow.
I need to focus on the fact that he was a cancer survivor for over a decade, and that’s what I’m celebrating. That’s what I’m working towards. That’s why I am doing Tri For a Cure again to raise money. For the decade he was with us, and the cancer research and prevention that MCF funds to help other people have extra decades. That IS something to celebrate.
So I’m Going to Just Keep Swimming
And I am getting better. I still panic in the water. It’s still a stretch for me to do 50 yards without breathing. But I can tell it’s mental and not physical. So I’ll keep eating away at the panic. Improving form. Getting better at breathing without losing technique and sinking. It’ll click. Sometime between now and July, it’ll click.
New Year’s Resolutions
I said I was going to mull them over with champagne and pick some. I’m still indecisive. I want to do them all.
I want to have meals planned and groceries purchased every Friday afternoon so we can have a more relaxed weekend as a family.
I want to try every class my gym offers at least once.
I’d like to have homemade granola bars or muffins in the freezer at all times for school snack options.
I’m thinking about taking up running. (I haven’t run since vacation in Dana Point that first week of December…. just keep swimming? And cycling? No?)
I want to get back into my meditation practice.
I want to be cleaned up from breakfast before lunch. Every day. EVERY day. WHY IS THIS SO HARD?!
These are all variations on things I already do… so maybe it’s not so crazy to attempt them all. After all, last year I learned to swim and clip into a road bike and completed my first two triathlons. THAT is crazy. Homemade granola bars are a snap compared to that.
Anyone come up with a resolution they’re really excited about? I’d love to hear about it.